14w4d

Sorry for the lack of update this week. Honestly, there isn't anything fun to write about happening. I'm still getting more and more excited for our elective u/s on the 24th! I'm hoping so badly that baby shows his/her goods! I had a dream the night before last that LO was a boy and I can't get it out of my head. My "mom instinct" is completely gone when it comes to the sex. I am officially totally unsure of what we're having. I have been feeling shitty all week as usual. Other than that.. I listen to LO every few days on the Doppler and that's it.

I did buy some CDs the other night. 6 Bumgenius freetimes (they're OS AIOs). I'll post a pic of my tiny stash when they come in. I'm thinking we'll probably CD our newborn with strictly prefolds and covers. I'm excited bc I really don't even want to bother with disposables.
If we have a boy, I am buying these like the minute we find out:

How far along? 14w4d!
Total weight gain/loss? I was 121 two days ago. That puts me at about 19-20lb under
Maternity clothes? Still none. My regular clothes are getting a bit loose. I suspect it'll be a bit before I even need my belly band again
Stretch marks? I have been attacked everywhere with them. I have about 6 or more on my back, several on both of my hips and one on each boob. I am totally baffled at where this weight is going if my skin is stretching enough to give me stretch marks.. I have no bump so I'm just totally lost
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? Meh, it was just another week. Nothing horrible and nothing great
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? Blimpies. I still don't have any strong cravings.
Gender? No effing clue
Belly button in/out? In for a long time. It's stretching a bit though.
What I miss: Just feeling good or normal. I kind of hate being pregnant so far
What I am looking forward to: Finding out if LO is a boy or girl!
Milestones: Well, being over 14 weeks, I am 100% in 2nd tri. Some people count 12w, some 13w, some 13w3d, and some 14w. I am over all of those (: How the hell did I get here?! Time is flying!

14w4d

Spoke too soon

HUGE puke fest this morning after feeling shitty all day yesterday. It started literally an hour or so after posting about how my m/s was gone. Satan baby, please stop fucking with me :P

13w0d

WOW! I can't believe jessuhbean and I made it this far! 2nd TRIMESTER!!! I guess technically it is 13w3d, but I'm going to round down so I can celebrate :P I love seeing my countdowns and tickers 1/3 of the way finished!

My m/s has left the building, at least for a few days. OMG it is so great to not be throwing up!

I am finally starting to feel a bit excited (well today.. who knows, tomorrow I could be a mess again!). I've been waiting to feel a bit more confident. I haven't been using my Doppler as much. Now I only break it out about twice a week vs every day (and sometimes several times in a day).

My check up was yesterday. It was pretty uneventful. The nurse wasn't worried about my weight at all. She said it is fine and she expects me to put it back on when my appetite comes back. She said my bp was "perfect." My doctor found the baby's heartbeat literally as soon as she pressed the Doppler wand to my belly. She even commented about how easy it was. Baby has been chilling dead center by my hairline for 2 or 3 weeks (before he/she was a tiny bit the my left). HB was 160. She said she'd guess girl by the heartbeat. I was surprised she'd entertain an OWT.

This study (above) is from the 80's.. but I doubt it is something that would change bc of time or technology. Listening on a Doppler for a hb and plotting it on a chart seems to be the only way to do a study like that.

I got the results for the NT scan b/w portion with the u/s. 1 in 20k chance of Downs Syndrome and an equally high number for the Trisomy's. She said I "passed" the test :P I was so excited to hear such a high number for the DS, that I don't remember the other numbers she told me.


How far along? 13w0d!
Total weight gain/loss? I haven't weighed myself today, but yesterday I was 125. Seems like my weight loss stalled this week (:
Maternity clothes? Still none. I have thought about buying some bc it's labor day weekend. I guess I'll talk to Keith tomorrow
Stretch marks? I have the small boob stretch mark and a HUGE boob stretch mark on the same boob ):
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? Feeling a bit better towards the end of the week. 3 days since I've blown chunks!
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? Scooby Snacks gummies. I can eat like 3-4 packs of them at one time! YUM!
Gender? I'm still leaning towards girl, but I'm not sure.. I'd say it is only about 60% girl feeling
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: I have been feeling like a few glasses of wine would be nice. Otherwise I don't miss much
What I am looking forward to: Finding out if LO is a boy or girl!
Milestones: Hit 2nd tri, I guess the next real milestone is the a/s and half baked! Less than 50 days!

Bump pic

12w4d right after Kieth's birthday dinner

That sound (:

There's no real point to this post. I just listened to my little one on the Doppler. I don't think there's a more soothing or sweet sound for me. Baby was sooo loud tonight. I guess it is probably bc my uterus is moving up. I still find him/her very low near my hair line. I can't believe I'm so close to second tri! It has been a crazy ride so far emotionally for me. I guess now I'm on the incline on this ride. I'm feeling relatively hopeful. I know I'll never feel like my LO is safe. I know I probably won't let this totally sink in for at least a few more months, if I do at all. There's no doubt that I love this little brat, but I can't let my guard all of the way down just yet. I feel like it isn't fair to my little one, but I'm so jaded and just outright scared. I know things can happen with the drop of a hat with no forewarning.
I'm glad I have this blog and this outlet. I love Keith to death, but he is the eternal optimist. He has never entertained any of my crazy fears. He is totally supportive and loving and he has been my rock, but I hate being a downer and I never really let all of my feelings flow. Like this post, it started with me just wanting to talk about hearing my sweetheart just now, but it turned into a bit of a therapeutic little session :P anyways, I'm not even sure why I felt the need to write any of this tonight, but it feels good getting it out. Goodnight (;

12w3d

This will probably be short. Not much has been going on. The nausea has let up some and my appetite is growing. I am still vomiting regularly, but there is no nausea leading up to it. In Keith's opinion, now I just "prance" to the bathroom when I am about to throw up. There's really almost no warning now. Before, I had growing nausea until it was unbearable. Now, I just have the urge and I truck it to the nearest bathroom. It sucks, but at least I'm not miserable 24/7. I'm still feeling crappy, but I guess that's better than feeling like death.
I have my second regular OB visit Friday. It should be pretty uneventful.
Random number 2: Keith has noticed I haven't been a crazy PgAL lady lately. I guess there's something soothing about 12w (;
Last random: I went back and added produce pictures to all of my weekly updates :P


How far along? 12w3d!(by a few hours.. I'm blogging at 2am again :P)
Total weight gain/loss? Down to 124.0 so my weight loss hasn't stopped, but it has definitely slowed. Last week, I was 124.8 and I've fluctuated b/w that and 125 and some change.
Maternity clothes? I still don't wear any. Honestly, I mainly wear pjs bc they don't press on my stomach and I don't leave the house much for fear of upchucking in public.
Stretch marks? the boob stretch mark is still about the same size. I haven't grown anywhere else
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? Hitting 12w. I can't believe jessuhbean and I have made it this far!
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? None, really. I could go for some Blimpies. Food isn't the easiest thing to down right now with this awesome gag reflex
Gender? I'm still leaning towards girl, but I'm not sure.. I'd say it is only about 60% girl feeling
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: Feeling like a human being
What I am looking forward to: Finding out if LO is a boy or girl!
Milestones: Only a week until 2nd Tri!

11w1d

Holy shit.. how did I get here? How is this going so fast? I thought once I quit my job that everything would go slowly, but it hasn't slowed down in the slightest! I don't have a big update or anything since I have written a lot lately.
I also haven't taken a bump pic.. I'm still losing weight so my stomach is going in the opposite direction as it is supposed to. I'm worried about the weight loss. Keith and I will go out for shakes and grocery shopping tomorrow.
My nausea has come back with a vengeance. I have barely been able to move since I got home from my trip. It started on the way to the airport.. I vomited my weight in gross shit and bojangles on the side of the interstate. I successfully (but uncomfortably) made it all the way through two flights and the 45min drive home without vomiting... until we got in our condo parking lot. I have been absolutely miserable since. I wish this could all be over. I missed out on a day trip to NYC today with my dad and brother. I am SO bummed. There's just no way I want to vom all over Time Square.
I'm sitting here trying to force down food from one of my favorite places.. ugh. I'm worried it'll affect baby. I know it's normal for the baby to fluctuate in growth and also for u/s's to be off a little in measurement.. but at my first u/s, baby was measuring a day ahead and on Friday baby was measuring a day behind (so two days difference).. I'm just scared ): The nurse got me some Zofran and it takes away the nausea, but it literally makes my stomach hurt instead of feeling sick. It's worse than the nausea bc at least with the nausea I can lay super still and feel normal or throw up and feel okay for 30 min.. there is no relief from the Zofran. I'm not taking it again unless I can't stop throwing up.
Keith and I are waiting for him to find out his schedule so we can plan our elective gender scan! We're going to try for the week of September 23rd (I turn 16w on Sept 22)! I am so incredibly excited! I'm hoping that will help me bond a little more with this baby.
On the name front, we may have decided or at least had our first agreement on names.. We've liked Dexter James since before I was pregnant and now I'm falling in love with Jillian Rose... if only I could talk Keith into Declan James (; he hates it..
Anyways, I don't have much else to report!

How far along? 11w1d!
Total weight gain/loss? ugh.. this question stresses me out.. I was 124.8 this morning.. that's from 140-141 pre-pregnancy
Maternity clothes? I don't wear any. My stomach has shrunk
Stretch marks? the boob stretch mark is still about the same size. I haven't grown anywhere else
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? Seeing little jessuhbean kick and roll on my ultrasound! It's so crazy that I have a little human inside of me!
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? None. Back to the extreme all food aversion shit. I did want sushi the other day but now it makes me want to gag
Gender? I'm still leaning towards girl, but I'm not sure.. I'd say it is only about 60% girl feeling
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: Last week when I was feeling better..
What I am looking forward to: Finding out if LO is a boy or girl!
Milestones: Getting the hell out of 1st tri! Less than a month away!