Bump pic

12w4d right after Kieth's birthday dinner

That sound (:

There's no real point to this post. I just listened to my little one on the Doppler. I don't think there's a more soothing or sweet sound for me. Baby was sooo loud tonight. I guess it is probably bc my uterus is moving up. I still find him/her very low near my hair line. I can't believe I'm so close to second tri! It has been a crazy ride so far emotionally for me. I guess now I'm on the incline on this ride. I'm feeling relatively hopeful. I know I'll never feel like my LO is safe. I know I probably won't let this totally sink in for at least a few more months, if I do at all. There's no doubt that I love this little brat, but I can't let my guard all of the way down just yet. I feel like it isn't fair to my little one, but I'm so jaded and just outright scared. I know things can happen with the drop of a hat with no forewarning.
I'm glad I have this blog and this outlet. I love Keith to death, but he is the eternal optimist. He has never entertained any of my crazy fears. He is totally supportive and loving and he has been my rock, but I hate being a downer and I never really let all of my feelings flow. Like this post, it started with me just wanting to talk about hearing my sweetheart just now, but it turned into a bit of a therapeutic little session :P anyways, I'm not even sure why I felt the need to write any of this tonight, but it feels good getting it out. Goodnight (;

12w3d

This will probably be short. Not much has been going on. The nausea has let up some and my appetite is growing. I am still vomiting regularly, but there is no nausea leading up to it. In Keith's opinion, now I just "prance" to the bathroom when I am about to throw up. There's really almost no warning now. Before, I had growing nausea until it was unbearable. Now, I just have the urge and I truck it to the nearest bathroom. It sucks, but at least I'm not miserable 24/7. I'm still feeling crappy, but I guess that's better than feeling like death.
I have my second regular OB visit Friday. It should be pretty uneventful.
Random number 2: Keith has noticed I haven't been a crazy PgAL lady lately. I guess there's something soothing about 12w (;
Last random: I went back and added produce pictures to all of my weekly updates :P


How far along? 12w3d!(by a few hours.. I'm blogging at 2am again :P)
Total weight gain/loss? Down to 124.0 so my weight loss hasn't stopped, but it has definitely slowed. Last week, I was 124.8 and I've fluctuated b/w that and 125 and some change.
Maternity clothes? I still don't wear any. Honestly, I mainly wear pjs bc they don't press on my stomach and I don't leave the house much for fear of upchucking in public.
Stretch marks? the boob stretch mark is still about the same size. I haven't grown anywhere else
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? Hitting 12w. I can't believe jessuhbean and I have made it this far!
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? None, really. I could go for some Blimpies. Food isn't the easiest thing to down right now with this awesome gag reflex
Gender? I'm still leaning towards girl, but I'm not sure.. I'd say it is only about 60% girl feeling
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: Feeling like a human being
What I am looking forward to: Finding out if LO is a boy or girl!
Milestones: Only a week until 2nd Tri!

11w1d

Holy shit.. how did I get here? How is this going so fast? I thought once I quit my job that everything would go slowly, but it hasn't slowed down in the slightest! I don't have a big update or anything since I have written a lot lately.
I also haven't taken a bump pic.. I'm still losing weight so my stomach is going in the opposite direction as it is supposed to. I'm worried about the weight loss. Keith and I will go out for shakes and grocery shopping tomorrow.
My nausea has come back with a vengeance. I have barely been able to move since I got home from my trip. It started on the way to the airport.. I vomited my weight in gross shit and bojangles on the side of the interstate. I successfully (but uncomfortably) made it all the way through two flights and the 45min drive home without vomiting... until we got in our condo parking lot. I have been absolutely miserable since. I wish this could all be over. I missed out on a day trip to NYC today with my dad and brother. I am SO bummed. There's just no way I want to vom all over Time Square.
I'm sitting here trying to force down food from one of my favorite places.. ugh. I'm worried it'll affect baby. I know it's normal for the baby to fluctuate in growth and also for u/s's to be off a little in measurement.. but at my first u/s, baby was measuring a day ahead and on Friday baby was measuring a day behind (so two days difference).. I'm just scared ): The nurse got me some Zofran and it takes away the nausea, but it literally makes my stomach hurt instead of feeling sick. It's worse than the nausea bc at least with the nausea I can lay super still and feel normal or throw up and feel okay for 30 min.. there is no relief from the Zofran. I'm not taking it again unless I can't stop throwing up.
Keith and I are waiting for him to find out his schedule so we can plan our elective gender scan! We're going to try for the week of September 23rd (I turn 16w on Sept 22)! I am so incredibly excited! I'm hoping that will help me bond a little more with this baby.
On the name front, we may have decided or at least had our first agreement on names.. We've liked Dexter James since before I was pregnant and now I'm falling in love with Jillian Rose... if only I could talk Keith into Declan James (; he hates it..
Anyways, I don't have much else to report!

How far along? 11w1d!
Total weight gain/loss? ugh.. this question stresses me out.. I was 124.8 this morning.. that's from 140-141 pre-pregnancy
Maternity clothes? I don't wear any. My stomach has shrunk
Stretch marks? the boob stretch mark is still about the same size. I haven't grown anywhere else
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? Seeing little jessuhbean kick and roll on my ultrasound! It's so crazy that I have a little human inside of me!
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? None. Back to the extreme all food aversion shit. I did want sushi the other day but now it makes me want to gag
Gender? I'm still leaning towards girl, but I'm not sure.. I'd say it is only about 60% girl feeling
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: Last week when I was feeling better..
What I am looking forward to: Finding out if LO is a boy or girl!
Milestones: Getting the hell out of 1st tri! Less than a month away!

10w6d NT scan!

Two posts in one week?! Still no bump pic though :P Maybe I'll take one tomorrow if I do my weekly post.
I had my NT scan today. Baby was dancing just like his/her dad! So much so that the tech had trouble getting the measurements. When she was finally done, the doctor came in to get better ones and jessuhbean wouldn't move at all for him! It was too funny. I have a crazy and stubborn child already. I'd say he/she takes after Keith! The measurements looked great and they will call me in about a week with the b/w results! It was all great except Keith couldn't get off of work! Hopefully we'll be having a gender scan in a little over a month and we'll work it around his schedule!
Now for my cutie!

Here's a pic my friend took of baby on the screen! I thought it was a pretty good profile!

Here's my favorite picture! Stupid doctor wrote on it with his pen.. he was trying to show me what was what like I'm an idiot.. it's pretty self explanatory in this pic and I'm not stupid

Here, he/she has his/her hands over his/her face (wow.. the he/she shit is annoying!)

All other news will be saved for tomorrow or whenever I'm feeling up for my FUCKING ELEVEN WEEK update! (sorry.. I'm pretty excited about making it this far and having a little leech inside that actually resembles a person instead of that cute little alligator!)



OOPS! Forgot to say that baby was measuring 10w5d (and literally a smidge big enough to get the measurements for the scan) and had a heart rate of 167bpm!

10w2d

I'll post a quick update on my phone. I cannot believe over one quarter of this pregnancy is over. Where has the time gone? In a few hours, I will have known I am pregnant for 7 fucking weeks... holy cow! That is almost has long as my first pregnancy! I hope it continues to fly by until I can feel baby move!

I'm back home visiting for my nephew's second birthday (: I love spending time with him! He's a ball of energy and fun!

I'm trying to post a pic of him in his Mickey chair/bed with his Spiderman car that Keith and I got him for his bday, but I think the app is going to put it at the bottom of the post :P

I was feeling really shitty last weekend and actually threw up for the first time last Sunday (9w1d). I was meh all week and then Thursday I wake up in Virginia with an appetite and feeling great! Other than exhaustion, I feel pretty normal. I freaked out a bit bc I didn't listen to LO on the Doppler for a day right when I started feeling better. Finally I bought some aloe gel and got batteries and the kid is still trucking away in there.

We announced on Facebook! It feels good to be "out." I freaked a little at first because last time baby stopped growing two days after we announced. It has been almost a week and I listened to baby tonight and recorded him/her and sent it to Keith since I'm still in va and he's home in CT.







How far along? 10w2d (by almost two hours.. I can't sleep so I'm posting at almost 2am)
Total weight gain/loss? Before I left, I was down 12lb, but my appetite is back so I'm not sure if I put any back on. My Dr wants me to put back all that I lost plus the standard 25lb
Maternity clothes? I wear my belly band with all of my clothes. Today I buttoned my jeans and felt fine though. I planned on buying some mat pants after a good u/s at 8w, but with the weight loss, I haven't had the urge to
Stretch marks? I have one forming on my boob.. fabulous.. I'm not even up a cup size yet
Sleep? I could sleep all day still.
Best moment last week? BR- hitting one quarter baked and hearing jessuhbean almost every night. NonBR- visiting family and friends back home
Movement? Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings? None too strong. Bojangles, but it's safe to say I want that all of the time even when I'm not with child :P
Gender? I'm starting to question my girl intuition when I keep calling baby "he" and "him." I will look up elective u/s places when I get home so we can find out. We'll probably do that or do some private gender reveal in case Keith is underway for the a/s
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: I hate being the center of attention and questions. Other than that, I love being pregnant now that I'm feeling better!
What I am looking forward to: getting a little bump and finding out if LO is a boy or girl! I also have my NT scan this week on Friday!
Milestones: Getting the hell out of 1st tri! Less than a month away! One quarter baked this past Saturday!

8w6d

Keith is off for the first time in forever so I probably won't post tomorrow at 9w exactly.
I haven't posted in a while because I was in a pretty dark place. I had given up hope on my little baby ): I was depressed and mentally preparing myself to have another d&c after my appointment. I don't have almost any symptoms anymore and that really scared me.

Soooooo.... There's a little baby inside me! I found the baby on the doppler Tuesday at 8w3d! It's the sweetest sound there ever was (: I love hearing my little washing machine :P

Then I had an awesome appointment on Wed at 8w4d (: I'm so happy I got to see my little bean! I guess I can't call him/her a little bean anymore because he/she has little arms and legs! I think it looks like a little dinosaur or an alligator :P Anyways, hb was in the 160s and he/she was measuring one day ahead of my O date. I will have my NT scan in a few weeks and then I'll have boring appt's until the anatomy scan (just blood pressure, weight, and doppler checks). I hope LO keeps growing! Here's my little jessuhbean:

How far along?  9 weeks tomorrow
Total weight gain/loss? I've lost 10lb as of this morning. I have no appetite ):
Maternity clothes?  I wear my belly band with all of my clothes. With the nausea, I can't stand having pressure on my stomach. I usually wear pjs at home because they aren't as tight.
Stretch marks? None yet
Sleep? I sleep a lot. I don't have that exhaustion during the day, but I'm getting more sleep at night since I quit my job.
Best moment last week? Seeing my little jessuhbean!
Movement?  Not for a while, I'm sure.
Food cravings?  Thinking of food makes me feel all gaggy. I can only stomach blimpies for the most part
Gender? No idea but I have strong girl vibes. Everyone keeps saying boy
Belly button in/out? In for a long time.
What I miss: Not much. I thought I'd miss alcohol a lot more, but when Keith drinks, it makes me want to gag. I don't really care for the smell at all. I had a non-alcoholic beer and haven't wanted a beer since.
What I am looking forward to: getting a little bump
Milestones: Getting the hell out of 1st tri! Less than a month away!


OOPS! I forgot my non-existant bump pic! I took it when I was walking out of the door today so ignore the sunglasses :P I think you can def tell I've lost weight. It's most noticeable in my face and stomach to me, but IDK about in the pic.