36w3d

I officially suck. I think this is the longest I've gone all pregnancy without updating. OOPS! I seriously haven't had anything to really update so I just let it slide by.

I feel bad sometimes when all I have to do is gripe and complain here lol. So here is my paragraph of bitching. Feel free to skip it. Let's face it.. 3rd tri sucks. I no longer feel like I have this cute little bump bc I'm freaking huge. I can't sit still for long bc I get insanely uncomfortable and have to keep switching positions. I can't sleep very long through the night. Jillian is currently beating the shit out of my ribs (okay, usually her movements are all cute because I can see and feel her little tush or feet and make me smile so I will take the few beatings I get every once in a while). I have KILLER crotch pain at this point. I can't do a lot of things (like roll over in bed) without grunting or crying out (for some reason this makes it easier.. maybe I will be a screamer in labor lol). Oh and a new thing that started yesterday.. my lower belly itches like mad! I think (but I can't get a good look) that I am developing stretch marks down there. It feels like it, but I can't see very well (even in a mirror bc it is the underside of my belly and I can't pull it up anymore).

So this past weekend, Keith and I took a babymoon/Valentine's Day trip to NYC. Yes, we have lived here an entire year and have not once gone to NYC together lol. Actually we haven't gone anywhere but Providence together even though we're pretty close to Boston too. It was pretty difficult and I found myself tired and out of breath quite a bit, but he was really patient with me and my breaks to sit down or get a drink. It was seriously the best weekend. We mainly just walked around and explored. We went to the huge Apple store on 5th Ave and FAO Schwarz and walked a lot around Time Square. We went to a Ninja-themed restaurant and saw Spiderman on Broadway. Our hotel was literally right outside of Grand Central which made things SO much easier for me bc we took a lot of subway rides instead of walking when we went from place to place (although we walked ALL day in Time Square which was rough). Our hotel was really nice and we just had loads of alone time. Seriously, my favorite parts were just laying in our hotel bed with Keith rubbing my belly and talking about our future. Annnnd now I'm getting all teared up.. I'll take this opportunity to blame it on the 3rd tri hormones lol.. yeah..

I don't feel like uploading all the pics we took. But here is a pic of me and The Biebs at the wax museum (we laughed and had SO much fun there!)

So, we still don't have written orders to our next location, but we have tentative word of mouth ones which makes me feel a lot a lot better. I was relatively bummed to find out that we are NOT moving to South Carolina anymore. We are going to upstate New York.. we know we have to report there around the 2nd or 3rd week of May, which means we will likely be moving about a month prior if Keith gets to take his 30 days of transfer leave. Once we get the orders and separation date on paper, we can start scheduling our move. While I am not thrilled about the Northern climate, I am trying to get stoked on the move. I am also bummed we won't be moving closer to family like we thought, but we won't be leaving all of our friends that live here in CT almost completely (because 3-4 hours back to Groton is WAY better than the 15 hours from SC to Groton to see friends). We will also be a few hours closer to Chicago. Everyone says how great/gorgeous it is up in Saratoga Springs (our new destination) so I'm hoping we enjoy it. Now, I'm thinking of selling my jogging stroller and getting a new and smaller one since we won't be taking trips on the beach like we thought before lol. I didn't buy myself anything nice with our re-enlistment, so I'm thinking of asking Keith for a nice stroller soon.

We also know exactly when Keith will be home for his paternity leave. Jill can still come at any time from now on, but it is nice to know at least one side of the equation. It is always weird/difficult to talk about huge things in my life that are also related to underway schedules lol. I obviously cannot give out dates for security reasons, but it is difficult to talk in broad terms all of the time when I know exactly what time periods it is going to affect me. I guess we will just say that we are cutting it close and I'm a little bummed that he will be missing the end of this pregnancy (especially when things are getting difficult for me to do on my own). At least this time I will be able to email him a bit. Last time he left it was unexpected and I had no way of communicating with him. Not an ideal situation for a first time mom in her 3rd tri that can't travel the 11 hours back home to be somewhere more familiar and to be around family!

Alright, no more updates on baby gear or diapers for a while bc I have told myself that I am DONE! Of course, I will still buy her little things here and there (like headbands), but I am officially done buying almost everything. My crafts will start back up when Keith leaves (I'm trying to save them to keep me busy while he's gone) and I know the first thing I'm going to attempt are wetbags for my diaper bag. They are one of the very few things that I must have before Jill gets here and I decided to try and make my own. If they don't turn out, then I will have to buy a few :P

Here are some shower pics:

Crammy got me this awesome book! Porn for new moms!

So there is a little story behind this tuxedo onesie for Jill. Keith and his best man bought Tuxedo tshirts to wear under their tuxes for our wedding. I just realized when trying to find a pic that we don't have a good pic of them wearing them at my wedding where you can tell how goofy they are lol so I will post the one from our wedding and then one from a friend's wedding where they were both groomsmen :P

Our wedding in Dec '11

Friends' wedding in June '12

How far along? 36w3d!
Total weight gain/loss? I had a big weight gain the past few weeks.. 148 (started 140 and was 120 at my lowest this pregnancy)
Stretch marks? I already talked about the few I think I'm getting under my bump
Sleep? I am still miserable. I am trying to sleep in on purpose to get as much sleep as possible before a baby prevents me from ever sleeping in again
Best moment last week? NYC!
Movement? Lots of movement and belly jumping. She's getting big so I see and feel outside movement with almost every movement (including her hiccups which make my whole belly jump)
Food cravings? Honestly nothing in particular lately. Maybe soft-baked cookies
Belly button in/out? The top third or half of my belly button is usually out, but if she changes positions then it pops back in.
Braxton Hicks/contractions? Nothing that I've recognized
What I miss: Sleeping 8-10 hours in a row
What I am looking forward to: Full term!
Milestones: Full term on Saturday! I can't believe how close it is to meeting her! It doesn't seem real.

35w0d

36w0d

Baby Shit

My house is covered in it it seems. I still haven't uploaded shower pics, so this post will be the ridiculous amount of baby things we have :P

Lately, I have been torturing Optimus as a stand-in for Jill.

Pup and Sophie

Pup loving the Boba Wrap. He seriously loved being in it (but he loves being held) when I expected him to freak out when I let go of him and let him rest in there without my support

Pup and Jill's seahorse and the robot blanket that Keith picked out

A friend of Keith's gave us a bunch of baby clothes, a swing, and a bouncer. My friend who so graciously gave me most of Jillian's clothes I already had also sent me another bag. I washed it all and took it to Jill's room and immediately got overwhelmed.. Her closet was already stuffed to capacity, so I decided I'd take down the 6-9mo clothes and larger.. yeah that didn't work. I couldn't fit almost anything else in the closet. I finally figured out that 0-3 and 3 are the same size so I took out everything larger than 0-3/3 and I baaaarely got it to fit. Here are the before and after pics. She has another small load of clothes in the dryer right now, but I'm hoping the 0-3 will fit in the closet because there isn't much.

Yes, this is real life.. This is what I was trying to stuff into the closet pictured below. The box had non-clothing items that I needed to put away (which I did), the pile closest to the crib was the larger sizes (6-9,9-12) that Keith's work friend gave us, the taller unfolded pile was the clothes given by my friend (all 0-3), the hangers were the 0-3 and 3-6 that Keith's friend gave. I later took the 3-6 off of the hangers and folded them in a tub. The pile on the bottom right were clothes/blankets/towels that needed to be washed. It took forever to get all of this put away!

This is before taking out the bigger sizes

This is AFTER taking out the bigger sizes and adding the new (to us) clothes that were given to us in 0-3 and smaller. I also took out the swing and shoved it into another closet. The baskets up top have (from left to right) bath stuff (towels, wash cloths, shampoo), toys (mainly little teethers and stroller/car seat toys), hats/headbands/bows, and shoes in the last basket. Next is a bottle drying rack and the scentsy buddy boxes. Down at the bottom is the pack n play, a basket of unwashed diapers, another bouncer, a tub of random things like little books, her bottles, etc. The tub under the My Brest Friend and Boppy are her larger clothes.

Keith is super stoked over these comic book plushies. He picked out his favorites and I picked out the Hulk

This is set up in my living room (: Keith was so excited to have the swing down here. I know I bought that swing and bouncer before (and I was given a bouncer at my baby shower), but these were too adorable to turn away for free! I traded in blue bouncer at BRU's trade in event (and we bought a jumperoo that's still in the box bc Jill likely won't be able to use it in this house bc we will hopefully move before she is big enough). I am thinking we will set up the other swing and bouncer in our room if she likes them. If not, I will sell them or donate them.

Lastly, this is Jill's coming home outfit that my grandma picked out. The dress is crazy adorable in person. It is light pink if you can't tell in the picture and those are little booties and tights.

34w0d

Wowsa. 6 weeks to go.. that doesn't seem right lol. That's not long at all! Mentally, I've been telling myself 2 more weeks than the ticker because I am already starting to get burnt out with the lack of sleep and the being uncomfortable 24/7.

This will be a quick post because I am incredibly tired after a sleepless night and a long (but fun!) day! I will have to do a long shower post another day (plus, I need to find the cord for the camera to get my shower pics anyways). The bottom line is that I had so much fun and I'm so incredibly thankful for a wonderful day and all of the love and support for me and baby Jillian. We're a lucky bunch!

Above is a pic of some of the spoils. I didn't bring in the diaper cake, humidifier, or high chair from the car bc it took quite a few trips to bring all this in (Keith is at work) and I'm exhausted! Jillian will never be naked.. I am pretty sure I will be bathing her in clothes and changing her outfits like 10x a day so she can wear everything she has lol! Thankfully, I don't need to bring a single thing back! I got more pacifiers than she'll probably need, but I think I will keep them all just in case (really, I only got 8 but they're all the same kind). I already went ahead and ordered stuff from Amazon that I didn't get so I could take advantage of the Amazon Mom 20% off event. I'll talk about my spoils and order in the shower post though.

Remember this list of "must-haves" and "really wants" (here's the update..)
Bottles
Diaper rash cream
Socks
Baby wash
Snappis
Pack n Play sheets (we would need this more towards the time when we move)
At least 1 more pail liner
Wet bag for diaper bag (x2)
Breast pump replacement parts
Breast milk storage bags
Nipple Cream
Nursing tanks and/or bras (I plan to get the bras after my milk comes in)
Pacifiers
Wrap/carrier and/or the infant insert for the Ergo
First aid kit and baby grooming kit
Humidifier
Baby monitor (probably not necessary right away and we might wait until we move to get this depending on when we move/how old Jill is/if we're ready to let her sleep away from us at night)

Yeah.. that just happened. I only need the small wet bags and baby grooming shiz.

How far along? 34w0d!
Total weight gain/loss? 140-142ish so up 20-22lb
Stretch marks? Nothing I've noticed since last week
Sleep? I have had a horrible time trying to sleep for the past few nights. I am miserable!
Best moment last week? Well, today.. the baby shower!
Movement? She has been slowing down this week. I'm assuming she's running out of room bc I don't feel hard kicks as much. More like what I assume is her adjusting and getting comfortable in there
Food cravings? Wings or chocolate milk
Belly button in/out? Nothing has changed. IDK if it will pop at this point
Braxton Hicks/contractions? Nothing that I've recognized
What I miss: Sleeping 8-10 hours in a row
What I am looking forward to: Full term!
Milestones: Next up is 35 weeks with 35 days to go!!

Stash Update

Here is a short stash update since I was rearranging Jillian's dresser (already :P). I wanted types of diapers to be together (pockets, AIOs, etc)

Top: Inserts. Middle: Burp clothes, cloth wipes, bibs, a few NB sposies. Bottom: changing pad covers, sheets, mattress covers, bassinet sheets, two or three blankets (I will likely have to find a new home for them bc we will need more than 3 blankets and nothing else will fit down low. I also hope to get another mattress cover and maybe one more cheap plain sheet)

FINALLY the custom HPs I ordered almost 3 months ago are in. I am in love with the diapers.. but the WAHM that made them was very frustrating to work with unfortunately ):

One Size Stash:
Row 1:
7 BumGenius Freetimes AIOs
12 BumGenius 4.0s pockets
Row 2:
2 WAHM pockets
3 Alva 4.0 pockets
6 Sunbaby pockets
3 Glowbug pockets
2 Little Fancy Pants fitteds
Row 3:
2 Rockin Robbies AI2s
2 Goodmama fitteds
1 Chloes Cloth fitted
1 boogie bums fitted
1 fluff by Mamamade fitted
Row 4:
1 Cutsie Tooshie pocket
2 Max and Meena Ai2s
1 Rockin Robbies AI2
1 Spider Monkey Designs cover

Newborn Stash:
Row 1:
13 THX AIOs
5 applecheeks size 1's
1 blueberry pocket xs
Row 2 and 3:
21 XS BG AIOs
Row 4:
2 random AIOs
Row 5:
4 custom xs covers
1 random cover (zebra)
Row 6:
1 bummis super whisper wrap NB size
(Not pictured: 26 NB bleached GreenMountainDiapers prefolds)

33w0d

That ticker over there (you can't see my side bar on mobile)--> says 49 days..
Commence freak out!

(Go ahead and skip the next few paragraphs bc this is going to get ramble-y and whiny) Let me clue you in on something that has been weighing heavily on my mind: We have heard nothing definite on whether Keith will be home or out to sea in March. I cannot discuss specifics of his boat schedule which makes it difficult to describe how stressed I am, but as of now, if he isn't able to fly home while the boat is in port a bit before Jill's due date (and I mean it is cutting it close), then he will be gone and unable to come home when Jill is born for at least weeks. Honestly, even if they do tell him he can come, if Jill doesn't wait until right around her due date to come, he will surely miss the birth. I am hoping that, if I go into labor a little early while they are still in port, he will be able to catch a flight almost immediately and catch the tail end of labor and her birth. If he goes out to sea after (on the longer trip I am referencing), Optimus and I are high-tailing it back to VA bc I am beyond scared to give birth alone up here with no family. I have two close girlfriends that I'd feel comfortable calling to take me to L&D and stay with me, and one is moving in a few weeks.. I know it isn't wise to worry about something that is completely out of my control and may end up all working out just perfectly with Keith being here, but that is not the kind of person I am lol. I worry and I expect the worst. In my mind, being prepared for the worst case scenario is better than expecting everything to fall into place and then your little fantasy world gets rocked. Unfortunately (at least in this scenario), Keith is the opposite of me. Usually it is fine because we balance each other, but, right now, his lack of concern and "everything will work out great" attitude is making me stress more. When I finally get to see him again, I plan on having a nice long chat about what he needs to do to get answers ASAP so I can be more prepared on what to expect or what plans I need to get in place if it doesn't look likely that he will be home.

Issue number 2: We are SUPPOSED to be leaving for shore duty in late March or April, but we have no official papers giving us any kind of dates. It is seriously a 1-2 month gap of when we could potentially be moving. This normally wouldn't worry me, because that is plenty far for us to prepare, but I will have a newborn come March and I would LIKE to have some idea of when we need to be in the new place even if it is tentative or down to a couple week period. I seriously need some help unclenching here lol.

I LOVE our life that the military has provided us. I love the idea of getting to experience new places and how close it makes our little family since we have to rely on each other when moving to a new and unfamiliar place. I know to expect things to be up in the air a lot with this life. I also know that it was our decision to get pregnant even though I knew he'd be out to sea around this time and that we were due to move around April-May of this year. I don't want to come across as ungrateful or bratty at all. I have put myself in this situation (and trust me, Jillian is MORE than worth the worry and stress), but, nonetheless, I AM stressed out about it and I do worry. I know once we move and I'm cuddling my little girl in our new town in our new house that I will wonder why I was so damned stressed over everything, but getting to that point is proving to be difficult for the planner in me.

(Okay, back to our regular broadcast) A huge wave of relief has come over me since I got Jill's nursery temporarily set up in our rental here in CT. I need some small things still, but I feel overall pretty damned prepared for her arrival in a physical way. I have a really short list of things that I consider must-haves that I will need before or shortly after she arrives:
Bottles
Diaper rash cream
Socks
Baby wash
Snappis
Pack n Play sheets (we would need this more towards the time when we move)
At least 1 more pail liner
Wet bag for diaper bag (x2)
Breast pump replacement parts
Breast milk storage bags
Nipple Cream
Nursing tanks and/or bras (I plan to get the bras after my milk comes in)
Pacifiers
Wrap/carrier and/or the infant insert for the Ergo
First aid kit and baby grooming kit
Humidifier
Baby monitor (probably not necessary right away and we might wait until we move to get this depending on when we move/how old Jill is/if we're ready to let her sleep away from us at night)

I feel great that the items on my list are small. The baby monitor and humidifier are the most expensive items (well, other than the nursing tanks and bras) and I still have my shower next weekend.

S/o of my shower.. OMG I am so freaking excited for it! I honestly think it's going to be perfect. Just a small party with good friends and I'm expecting great food (my hostess is a great cook and party planner!)! My boubeads necklace came in the mail the other day.. holy shit Chancie and her sister have such an eye for this stuff!

I will obviously be posting pictures of it with my shower dress next weekend! I have already seen a preview of a pacifier clip I am ordering for Jillibean and I am in love already! If it is anything like the necklace, I know I will love it even more in person! I plan on getting a few more necklaces too for Jill to play with and chew while I'm wearing her in my ergo or boba/moby wrap (I WANT the boba, but I have a moby on my BRU registry since they don't carry the boba) and nursing her. I have heard that babies get distracted when nursing sometimes and having the nursing necklace is perfect for keeping their attention to your breast area. I obviously haven't tested this, but even if I do have a baby with an awful attention span, I will look mega cute :P I was seriously sad bc I didn't think I'd be able to wear jewelry without it being tugged and chewed on when holding a baby that wants to grab everything in sight and now I can and I won't have to worry about her hurting herself or my gold jewelry! Okay.. I'm done. I OBVIOUSLY think Chancie and her sister are the most brilliant people ever lol.

Well, Optimus and I are headed upstairs to cuddle in Jillian's new recliner while reading! I love that chair so much already!

How far along? 33w0d!
Total weight gain/loss? 137.6lb a few minutes ago on my home scale. Pre-pregnancy weight -140. Lowest weight this pregnancy -120
Stretch marks? I have a new HUGE (like 3in at least) sideways one that is perpendicular to my butt crack lol. I am still surprised that I haven't got any on my stomach or through my tattoos yet
Sleep? I am hating my new sleeping habits right now.. Without fail, I am awake around 2-4am and cannot usually get back to sleep until 8am or so. If I don't nap during the day (which is preferable since it's nice to accomplish things like cleaning and sewing during daylight so I'm not being noisy when my neighbors are sleeping), then I am lucky to make it to 10 before passing out. Usually, I pass out around 6pm and sleep 3-4 hours. I seriously feel like a baby with these short spurts of sleep. I know people would likely tell me to "get used to it bc you'll be sleep deprived with a newborn," but, the point is, I KNOW that and I'd like to enjoy getting a full night's sleep while I still can.. Oh well
Best moment last week? For sure seeing the nursery come together! I LOVE seeing my vision come together
Movement? She's been a maniac this past week. It is incredibly cool bc now I can usually feel around my stomach and feel a protruding butt or knee or elbow (or something!) and if I poke it, she usually squirms. I wonder if it is because she is bigger now or because she is not transverse. I think she's either head down or kind of diagonal with her head near my hip and feet near my opposite ribs
Food cravings? I've been wanting (and consuming many) wings lately (still the same :P)
Belly button in/out? The top maybe 1/4 of it is out, the rest is just getting flatter, but is still in (so same)
Braxton Hicks/contractions? Nothing that I've recognized
What I miss: Sleeping 8-10 hours in a row
What I am looking forward to: my baby shower!!!
Milestones: Next up is 35 weeks with 35 days to go!!

Yesterday at 32w6d

I will admit that I have not seen/eaten quite a few of the fruits/veggies on these things.. but I honestly have no freaking clue what this one even is.. a "durian"???????

EDIT:

Nursery furniture is all here!

I have done a few crafts (changing pad cover and fitted crib sheet) that I took pictures for, but I'm not feeling like blogging much today. I just wanted to show off Jill's nursery furniture.

This was my original inspiration. I ended up changing my mind on the dresser and crib set and I'm really pleased with the new ones! The sheets I ordered custom on Etsy fell through, so the fabrics are slightly different (and I like them better bc they're more feminine) and I saved a bunch of money doing them myself. I actually spent less on the fabric for two sheets and two changing pad covers than I did on just the two sheets I originally ordered (almost $20!). I still haven't put up any prints and I'm going to re-do the mobile a bit (I will definitely post updated pics).

I am LOVING the sorting hat! These are the two changing pad covers I made (the dresser is not black, but the lighting in the nursery sucks). I think I will put Jill's name letters over the dresser with a framed print on both sides and then a vinyl HP quote over the crib. I plan to make maroon curtains when we move (I don't want to fit curtains to the windows here and them not work out at our new place and plus, I won't know how many windows she'll have).

I'm not crazy about how the pillow turned out. I wish I made the squares bigger and they didn't unravel as much as the quilt did in the wash

My first quilt! It's pretty small 36x36

 Here is Optimus trying out the crib after I put it together!

The rocker recliner is my favorite! It rocks and reclines really easily and it isn't one of the huge over-stuffed ones that would be difficult to get out of with a baby in my arms. Later, we can move it to another room easily (probably Keith's man-cave or our bedroom bc we have dark furniture in there too)

A better picture that shows the crib skirt. I hope it will stand out more once we move to a house without these tacky carpets.

 Also, unrelated to the nursery, here are my last 4 diapers that I have bought/plan to buy (until Jill gets here and we figure out what does and doesn't work for us). I really need some covers to go over the fitteds and, if we like prefolds, I will get some larger sizes in those later. I ordered 20 Charcoal and Microfiber Blend inserts and they are boiling now. I still need to strip my used diapers and I have two new BGs that I must have looked over when doing my huge prep a few weeks back. They just need to go through one wash bc they're new so I will throw them in with any clothes/blankets that Jill may get at my shower next weekend!

Little Fancy Pants fitted, Goodmama fitted, random WAHM pocket, LFP fitted